Q & A about them

Q- You and (insert name here of most Portlanders) used to be really close. You both used to hang out a lot. What happened?

A- I stopped calling or texting, to see if they would call or text. I never heard from them again.

Q-Do you still consider them friends?

 A- Well, when I was initiating the communication 100% of the time, I considered them to have been friends. 

Q- And now?

A-That depends on your definition of the word friend. They fit the definition of some one with whom I am familiar and that's different from friendship.  I have friends. Those that I've never heard from since I stopped calling or texting-  those are not my friends.

Silence. 

The weight of what remains

I'm paying attention

What does it feel like?

refresh my memory;

someone.   let me

 live

through           u

remind me what it feels like to get out of bed

to leave the house with a smile on my face--

someone...

almost anyone

#nottoday

Today I let someone's tendency to be overdramatic take root in me, effecting my day. This won't happen tomorrow.  The burden she unloads onto me regularly, I'm giving it right back to her, brick to brick. I'm not accepting it anymore.
I was thinking this evening, while watching my show The Young & the Restless. There are some storylines, some people on the show that piss me off. But the writers of the show write to make us feel a certain way. The difference between someone I know and an actor being dramatic  is that the latter is doing it to get paid and the former one  actually believes their drama is real.

#butnottoday.