i need a party.
as soon as i can move out to my own place (which is no time soon, unfortunately), I'm pulling my stereo, my turntables and my 2 five-foot tall speakers out of storage, and my 8 crates of vinyls and I'm inviting everyone I know and like, to bring their own music and food, and I'm throwing a party
30 September 2014
29 September 2014
The Number 7 and The 7 year itch
From the Seven Days of Genesis to the Seven Seals of Revelation, Scripture is saturated with the Number Seven. Essentially all Biblical scholars, regardless of their stance regarding the meaning of numbers in Scripture, have recognized its special symbolic significance. Simply stated, it is impossible to miss. God laid the foundation of its meaning when He introduced this number in the context of His finished Work of Creation (Gen 2:2f):
7 years ago today, I packed up my belongings and my two kitties and I left the safety net of family and friends and familiar surroundings and my church in Wisconsin, and I moved to a state far far away, to start a job on October 1.
I still like my job, but do I think I made the right decision?
It took my moving here to realize that money wasn't everything-not that I made that much more than when I lived in Milwaukee Wisconsin. I'm still one paycheck away from being homeless.
I miss my family so much. I miss my friend Jeff. He lived within a block of me. I miss my friends Decarlo, Romayne , and Nicholas. They lived in town. I miss the feeling of being a kid in a candy store, with regards to the type of women I like dating. When we both had no plans, Jeff and I would catch every good movie that came to town. The church we attended which was the largest black church in Wisconsin- I miss fellowshipping there, and looking at the hundreds and hundreds of beautiful black women there. Decarlo and Romayne attended the second largest black church in the state. I used to visit their churh some time. I miss the cookouts Nicholas and his brother always invited me to, and the happy hours. I miss Shakara. I miss Vandana. I miss Faisreh and her surprise visits. I miss my 2-floor one bedroom apartment. Just think - I was getting paid less there and I was able to afford a nice 2-floor one bedroom apartment. Rent in Milwaukee is much cheaper than it is here. I miss surprising my mom by showing up at her church often, and driving 70-something miles whenever my nephew called and wanted to go for a drive. I didn't mind making that trip because I wanted to hang with him and he needed a father figure. My friends always kept me busy; I didn't have one weekend to myself, and that's how I liked it. My life then can't be any more the opposite of what it is now.
I don't miss the snow and the sub-zero temperatures, but knowing what I know now, the jury is still out on whether I made the right decision.
But I think the answer is no.
I'm here now, and I'm tired of moving, so I'm going to make the best of this situation and I'm going to have a positive attitude. And try to keep busy at my job. I'm going to to keep so busy growing my baking business and trying to sell enough manuscripts on Amazon Kindle -and be so busy that I forget how badly this place sucks.
And on the seventh day God ended his work which he had made; and he rested on the seventh day from all his work which he had made. And God blessed the seventh day, and sanctified it: because that in it he had rested from all his work which God created and made.
God introduced the Number Seven as a symbol of the completion of His initial creative act. But the work that He ended on the Seventh Day in the First Book was really just the beginning of the Biblical revelation of all history that He consummated in the Last Book. And it is here that we see the Divine consistency of the Number Seven as a Biblical symbol; God used it with exactly the same meaning when He revealed the end of time, described as the completion of the "mystery of God," in Revelation 10:5ff:
And the angel which I saw stand upon the sea and upon the earth lifted up his hand to heaven, And sware by him that liveth for ever and ever, who created heaven, and the things that therein are, and the earth, and the things that therein are, and the sea, and the things which are therein, that there should be time no longer: But in the days of the voice of the seventh angel, when he shall begin to sound, the mystery of God should be finished, as he hath declared to his servants the prophets.
The word translated as finished is the Greek teléo, which generally means to bring to a close, to complete, to end, to fulfill. This word appears again in Revelation 15:1 which explicitly states the reason for seven angels with seven plagues:
And I saw another sign in heaven, great and marvelous, seven angels having the seven last plagues; because in them is filled up (teléo) the wrath of God.
This verse displays a double emphasis on temporal consummation; the word translated as last is eschatos, whence eschatology, the study of the end times. God reiterated its connection with the Number Seven a third time in Revelation 16:17:
And the seventh angel poured out his vial into the air; and there came a great voice out of the temple of heaven, from the throne, saying, It is done.
This is characteristic of the Bible; most symbols are clearly defined in the text and used quite consistently from Genesis to Revelation. The Number Seven, the numerical symbol of Fullness, Completion, and Perfection, is a prime example of this consistency, as illustrated by this entry from the Tyndale Bible Dictionary (emphasis added):
In Scripture, seven symbolizes completeness or perfection. On the seventh day God rested from his labors and creation is finished (Gn 2:2). Pharaoh in his dream saw seven cattle coming from the Nile (41:2). Samson’s sacred Nazirite locks were braided in seven plaits (Jgs 16:13). Seven devils left Mary of Magdala, signifying the totality of her previous possession by Satan (Lk 8:2); "seven other devils" will enter the purified but vacant life of a person (Mt 12:45). However, on the positive side, there were the seven spirits of God (Rv 3:1). In the seventh year the Hebrew slave was to be freed (Ex 21:2), having completed his time of captivity and service. Every seventh year was a sabbatical year (Lv 25:4). Seven times seven reiterates the sense of completeness. In the Year of Jubilee (at the completion of 7 x 7 years = the 50th year), all land is freed and returns to the original owners (Lv 25:10). Pentecost, the Feast of Weeks, is seven times seven days after Passover. "Seventy," which is literally "sevens" in Hebrew, strengthens the concept of perfection. There are 70 elders (Ex 24:1) in Israel. Israel was exiled to Babylon for 70 years (Jer 25:12) to complete its punishment. "Seventy times seven" (Mt 18:22) reiterates this still further. The Lord was not giving Peter a mathematical number of times that he should forgive another person, but rather was insisting on limitless forgiveness for a brother’s sin.
With this understanding, we can now see the Number Seven as a fourth independent symbol declaring of the completion and perfection of the whole Bible displayed in the sevenfold symmetry of the Canon Wheel. After clearly defining the meaning of the Number Seven throughout the text of Scripture, God then plainly applied it to the design of its large-scale structure. Thus we see that God took four independent yet harmonious symbols and forged them in the furnace of His Infinite Wisdom into a single multifaceted compound symbol declaring with one voice the Divine Perfection of His Holy Word! This is the overwhelming wonder of it all; the symbols God embedded in the design of His Word continue to build one upon the other, endlessly and effortlessly amplifying their mutually coherent implications. Each independent thread in this Divine Tapestry strengthens every other thread until they unite to form an absolutely unbreakable cord.
This complex simplicity and unity in diversity is the hallmark of Divine Wisdom. The Bible Wheel – the Seal of God’s Word – is an exceedingly dense compound of four heterogeneous elements that burns like the nuclear furnace of the sun. And just as the four symbols are mutually integrated, so also each symbol carries multiple symbolic overtones within itself. We saw this with the Alpha Omega which bears the ideas of the beginning and end, eternity, everything created, the Word of God, and God Himself. The Number Seven carries a corresponding depth of composite meaning within itself, as we shall presently see.
When God introduced the Number Seven as a symbol of the completion of His Work of Creation, He also associated it with sanctification (holiness), declaring that He "blessed the seventh day, and sanctified it." Thus God laid the foundation for its application throughout the rest of Scripture. It is a double symbol signifying both completion and sanctification. These ideas natural cohere because sanctification denotes the setting apart or separating of a person or thing as wholly devoted or completely given over to God, as when He separated the Levitical Priests saying "they are wholly given unto me" (Num 8:16), or again when Paul prayed that "the very God of peace sanctify you wholly" (1 Thes 5:23). This is the essence of the Fourth Commandment which mandates the complete cessation of all mundane work and the complete devotion to the things of God. The Christian fulfills this through faith in the finished work of Christ, our eternal Sabbath (Hebrews 4:10).
The Fourth Commandment permanently embedded the threefold association of completion, sanctification, and the Number Seven into the fundamental rhythm – the very heartbeat – of Jewish life. Just as God ceased His Work on the Seventh Day, so the Jews rest from their work on the Seventh Day and sanctify it unto God. This set the basis of God's sacred pattern of time that completely dominates the Old Testament calendar. It is the origin of the seven-day week now common to the entire world. Obviously, it is very important to God that we recognize and understand the meaning of this number. He used it reiteratively on multiple scales (days, months, years) throughout His ceremonial laws and in His design of the Jewish religious calendar. The Lord ordained seven days for the sanctification of the altar (Exo 29:37), seven days for the sanctification of the Priests (Lev 8:33), and a series of weeks for the cleansing of leprosy (13:1). Likewise, the sanctifying blood of the sacrifice was sprinkled seven times (8:11, 14:7), and following the pattern of the weekly Sabbath on a higher scale, He ordained every seventh year as a sabbatical year when the land was to lay fallow (25:2).
The Seven Feasts of the Lord exemplify God’s reiterative application of this number in the structure of His ceremonial circle of time. It begins with the Feast of Passover on the fourteenth day (2 x 7) of the first month followed immediately by seven days of the Feast of Unleavened Bread. The Feast of Pentecost then comes fifty days (7 x 7 + 1) after the first sabbath following Passover, a pattern God repeated on a higher scale with the Year of Jubilee set for every fifty years (7 x 7 + 1). The whole cycle of Seven Feasts culminates with three connected "holy convocations" of the seventh month, beginning with the Feast of Trumpets followed by the great Day of Atonement which God integrated with the Year of Jubilee and the numerical pattern of "seven times seven" (Lev 25:8f):
And thou shalt number seven sabbaths of years unto thee, seven times seven years; and the space of the seven sabbaths of years shall be unto thee forty and nine years. Then shalt thou cause the trumpet of the Jubilee to sound on the tenth day of the seventh month, in the Day of Atonement shall ye make the trumpet sound throughout all your land. And ye shall hallow the fiftieth year, and proclaim liberty throughout all the land unto all the inhabitants thereof: it shall be a jubilee unto you; and ye shall return every man unto his possession, and ye shall return every man unto his family.
God designed the Seven Feasts to accomplish a variety of purposes. They exemplify the symbolic meaning of the Number Seven and indelibly imprint it on the mind of all who read the Bible. They also reveal a prophetic calendar that now stands as an eternal memorial of the great Work of Christ. Three of the primary events of the New Testament – the death of Christ on Passover (1 Cor 5:7), His resurrection on Firstfruits (1 Cor 15:20), and sealing of the newborn Church by the Holy Spirit on Pentecost – were anticipated by them.7 years ago today, I packed up my belongings and my two kitties and I left the safety net of family and friends and familiar surroundings and my church in Wisconsin, and I moved to a state far far away, to start a job on October 1.
I still like my job, but do I think I made the right decision?
It took my moving here to realize that money wasn't everything-not that I made that much more than when I lived in Milwaukee Wisconsin. I'm still one paycheck away from being homeless.
I miss my family so much. I miss my friend Jeff. He lived within a block of me. I miss my friends Decarlo, Romayne , and Nicholas. They lived in town. I miss the feeling of being a kid in a candy store, with regards to the type of women I like dating. When we both had no plans, Jeff and I would catch every good movie that came to town. The church we attended which was the largest black church in Wisconsin- I miss fellowshipping there, and looking at the hundreds and hundreds of beautiful black women there. Decarlo and Romayne attended the second largest black church in the state. I used to visit their churh some time. I miss the cookouts Nicholas and his brother always invited me to, and the happy hours. I miss Shakara. I miss Vandana. I miss Faisreh and her surprise visits. I miss my 2-floor one bedroom apartment. Just think - I was getting paid less there and I was able to afford a nice 2-floor one bedroom apartment. Rent in Milwaukee is much cheaper than it is here. I miss surprising my mom by showing up at her church often, and driving 70-something miles whenever my nephew called and wanted to go for a drive. I didn't mind making that trip because I wanted to hang with him and he needed a father figure. My friends always kept me busy; I didn't have one weekend to myself, and that's how I liked it. My life then can't be any more the opposite of what it is now.
I don't miss the snow and the sub-zero temperatures, but knowing what I know now, the jury is still out on whether I made the right decision.
But I think the answer is no.
I'm here now, and I'm tired of moving, so I'm going to make the best of this situation and I'm going to have a positive attitude. And try to keep busy at my job. I'm going to to keep so busy growing my baking business and trying to sell enough manuscripts on Amazon Kindle -and be so busy that I forget how badly this place sucks.
20 September 2014
One of these days
Imagine for the past 4 to 5 years you go on a stage in front of your friends once or twice a day for about maybe 30 minutes each time, and you're performing. You're either singing, or reciting poetry, reading an essay, or playing an instrument. There are about a hundred or more people in the audience. At each performance. ninety-nine percent of the audience is not paying attention to you. They're on their phone , texting, or talking on the phone, or reading a book, or doing whatever. Only one percent of the audience is listening to you and applauding you. But, you try to make sure to attend every one of their performances, and you make sure they know you were there and that you're interested in what they have to say or do.
You get to a point where you realize that people aren't interested in anything you want to share. Maybe two or three people.
That's how I feel about the things I share on this blog. I do love the creative outlet that blogging provides, but one of these days I will be gone from the blogosphere and the aforementioned will be the reason why.
18 September 2014
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11 September 2014
In remembrance of 9 11
13 years ago I was working as a Health Consultant at a consulting firm in Washington Dc. A lot of the companies we represented were housed in the World Trade Center. That morning when I showed up at work my assistant told me a plane hit one of the Twin Towers. We all thought it was an accident. I returned to my desk after getting some coffee and was told another plane hit the other Twin Tower. We then knew it was premeditated. Then at 9:39 that morning the Pentagon was hit. I remember the entire company rushing to the conference room to watch a report from CNN about the bombing, and the president of the company said we could go home if we wanted. The building was empty in minutes. I remember the streets. There were military planes flying over head , and sirens. It was like a scene right out of the King Kong or Godzilla movies, where people were running every which way, trying to get to safety. Trying to get to schools to get their kids. Trying to get home. The busses were packed with everyone trying to get on. Even the trains were packed. It used to take me about 30 minutes to get home from work. That day it took me about 4 hours. I will never forget that. I remember trying to call my mom to tell her I was ok, but the lines were so overwhelmed that I couldn’t get a call through until that evening. I will never forget that day. Nearly 3,000 people died as a result of the attacks.
My thoughts are once again with all those who lost loved ones on that tragic morning. I think about those who were killed, honoring the sacrifices of the first responders, and remembering the spirit of unity that emerged in the aftermath of 9/11.
My thoughts are once again with all those who lost loved ones on that tragic morning. I think about those who were killed, honoring the sacrifices of the first responders, and remembering the spirit of unity that emerged in the aftermath of 9/11.
I'm Done
They say that a sign of insanity is to continue to do the same thing and expecting different results.
I must be insane.
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And they haven't worked. I have tried other ways but they haven't worked either and I would always go back to what I would normally do.
I'll leave it in your very capable hands, Lord.
Thank you,
Amen
I must be insane.
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And they haven't worked. I have tried other ways but they haven't worked either and I would always go back to what I would normally do.
I'll leave it in your very capable hands, Lord.
Thank you,
Amen
10 September 2014
04 September 2014
03 September 2014
Reminiscing
I never heard these songs before today, but their styles took me waaaaaay back, to 15 years ago.
Silver Spring Maryland, where I lived.
Washington Dc, where I worked 10 miles away.
Chocolate city.
Steve Harvey on the radio or TD Jakes on BET as I got dressed for work. D'angelo, Jill Scott, Luther Vandross, Stevie Wonder, The Roots, Mos Def, Musiq Soulchild, Nas, Jay-Z, Destiny's Child, The Clipse, etc on the radio 24/7, 365.
Chocolate city.
My friend Henry. My friend Amanda. My friend Roland. My friend Diego. My friend Onyx. My friend Jeffrey. My friend Daniel. My friend Kirby.
Shakara and her fights when I would take her to predominately black clubs (there were many in Dc because it was Chcocolate City) and all of a sudden black women would find me attractive when I was with her.
Chocolate city.
Lots of times I wish Washington Dc was still 10 miles away to the east,
Madison, Milwaukee, and Racine 10 miles away to the west,
Southern California 10 miles away to the north
(and Paris to the south)
Silver Spring Maryland, where I lived.
Washington Dc, where I worked 10 miles away.
Chocolate city.
Steve Harvey on the radio or TD Jakes on BET as I got dressed for work. D'angelo, Jill Scott, Luther Vandross, Stevie Wonder, The Roots, Mos Def, Musiq Soulchild, Nas, Jay-Z, Destiny's Child, The Clipse, etc on the radio 24/7, 365.
Chocolate city.
My friend Henry. My friend Amanda. My friend Roland. My friend Diego. My friend Onyx. My friend Jeffrey. My friend Daniel. My friend Kirby.
Shakara and her fights when I would take her to predominately black clubs (there were many in Dc because it was Chcocolate City) and all of a sudden black women would find me attractive when I was with her.
Chocolate city.
Lots of times I wish Washington Dc was still 10 miles away to the east,
Madison, Milwaukee, and Racine 10 miles away to the west,
Southern California 10 miles away to the north
(and Paris to the south)
Labels:
BET,
D'Angelo,
Destiny's Child,
Jay-Z,
jill scott,
Jordan rakei,
luther vandross,
Mos Def,
MUSIQ SOULCHILD,
Nas,
steve harvey,
Stevie Wonder,
TD Jakes,
The Clipse,
The Roots
02 September 2014
01 September 2014
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