25 December 2018
17 December 2018
12 December 2018
11 December 2018
10 December 2018
in the drumpf era
For the bold, courageous ones, the white hood has been replaced with MAGA hats. It's socially acceptable.
Apart/together/apart
“The splendid thing about falling apart silently...is that you can start over as many times as you like.”
― Sanober Khan, A Thousand Flamingos
07 December 2018
07 August 2018
ME.
Interesting, because while I like being alone but I also hate it. I know it's contradictory. I was at a social event this evening, and the friend of mine that was there and didn't know anyone besides me and the host, had engaging conversations with multiple people at the party, and exchanging contact information, and though it was killing me that I wasn't making any connections, I didn't even try. I only chatted with the host and his wife. They spoke to me; I didn't have to come up with anything creative to say. I was asked to arrive a couple hours early to help with the cooking ( I barbecued all the spare ribs and even baked a cake). I expected the spare ribs and the cake that everyone ate till it was gone, would have been a conversation piece, but it wasn't. I'm introverted and don't want to be.
05 August 2018
ACS
Mad props to my friends Aaron, Billal, and Farzahad for paying a subscription to my monthly cake service. Extra props to Aaron for coming up with the idea and being the first subscriber. Extra extra mad props to Billal who lives in Cairo Egypt and Farzahad who lives in Alkhobar Saudi Arabia. Billal and Farzahad don't even like sweets. They call it a subscription. I call it a donation. Thanks!
Amendment- Thanks to my friend Karim for buying a subscription today. He lives in Paris.
Amendment- Thanks to my friend Karim for buying a subscription today. He lives in Paris.
03 August 2018
What advice would you give your younger self?
- Not to trust anyone, and to find things out for myself.
- Ignore my high school guidance counselor and take calculus and trigonometry courses.
- Buy Yahoo stock.
- Ignore mean things I've overheard and have been told about myself that have affected my behavior and belief system to this day.
- Don't be afraid to have an opinion.
01 August 2018
29 July 2018
28 July 2018
Basically,
Texting and instant messaging are the easiest and quickest forms of communication. You don't even need to type a full sentence. I have friends in Oman, Turkey, Canada,The U.K., Paris, and Sydney Australia that type paragraphs everytime they text me, a few times a month. It's easy to message people 'to say hey wassup', or to respond by giving a simple 'thanks' .
If you can't even text a few words, then just admit you don't want to have anything to do with that person.
27 July 2018
26 July 2018
10 July 2018
13 May 2018
07 May 2018
03 May 2018
23 April 2018
22 April 2018
What I don't see ( anymore)
I often hear that absence makes the heart grow fonder. That's bullshit. The reality is the quote out of sight, out of mind.
I can't even count the number of relationships and friendships that seem to have ended the second I realized I was the one initiating all the communication and I stopped.
I can't even count the number of relationships and friendships that seem to have ended the second I realized I was the one initiating all the communication and I stopped.
21 April 2018
20 April 2018
I Like It
I remember when you called me weird
We was in math class, third row, I was sitting by you
Right before Mr. Ammond’s class
‘Cause my mom couldn’t afford new Js
Polos, thrift store, thrift clothes that was all I knew
Do you remember?
Uh, I remember when you laughed when I cut my perm off
And you rated me a six
I was like, “Damn.”
But even back then with the tears in my eyes
I always knew I was the shit
- I Like It, by Janelle Monae
We was in math class, third row, I was sitting by you
Right before Mr. Ammond’s class
‘Cause my mom couldn’t afford new Js
Polos, thrift store, thrift clothes that was all I knew
Do you remember?
Uh, I remember when you laughed when I cut my perm off
And you rated me a six
I was like, “Damn.”
But even back then with the tears in my eyes
I always knew I was the shit
- I Like It, by Janelle Monae
19 April 2018
About words
I had a dream I was on top of a very tall building. I was nervous because I'm afraid of heights. I didn't want to be there. Behind me, the sun was shining brightly and the sky was blue, but I was being encouraged to walk in the opposite direction, towards dark cloudy skies. As I approached the edge, voices I recognized, told me to close my eyes and to keep walking. They assured me it was going to be okay, just take a few steps. And then I lost my balance and I fell backwards over the edge, and as my body raced towards the ground, I heard a friend say their job is to just say words and not be helpful. I was thinking that I didn't need words. Then I heard another familiar voice say "you're fast approaching the 13th floor. The 12th floor. The 9th floor. We love you. We got you," and then my acceleration towards earth slowed down quickly and like a cat, I was able to stand upright, landing softly on my feet and I was able to walk away. Then we got in a car. My cat Isaiah was curled up, next to a golden retriever, both asleep on my blanket in the backseat. Suddenly, we were walking away from the building, and I remember thinking about someone who said their job was just to say words, and I looked up at the building, and it collapsed right in front of me- and I woke up suddenly. Suddenly there was no tall building. It was green grass for miles around, everywhere I looked around me. And the sky was blue and the sun was shining brightly and there were no clouds. Then I woke up suddenly and I saw that my cat Isaiah was curled up, asleep at the foot of my bed. I wrote down everything I could remember about the dream, then I went back to sleep.
17 April 2018
Words
You don't have to be a Christian to behave like one. I know lots of atheists and muslims that behave like Christians, and a few Christians that may say they love Christ, but behave like they never heard His name before.
Jack White - Over and Over and Over
Don't ask me why I like this song. I don't know why but when I heard it on SNL, I had to find it on youtube
15 April 2018
12 April 2018
11 April 2018
-Listening to...
That high soprano you hear is Minnie Ripperton.
09 April 2018
07 April 2018
Memories
Riding in the passenger's seat of my dorm mate's light blue mustang through New Tazewell on my way to the University of Tennessee-Knoxville spring of 1981 going to hang with his girlfriend and her friends for the weekend this song was playing and this song was in my dreams last night-
06 April 2018
05 April 2018
Medicine For The Nightmare
Have you had your nightmare today? Texas seceded from the Union to form it's own sovereign nation and to do what the other 49 states didn't have the courage to do: to punish people the way they need to be punished. Some sacrifices had to be made. It came with a price. And some regret, but not for the women.
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04 April 2018
About 'friends'
I don't care to have alot of friends.
Adolf Hitler had millions, but Jesus only had 12
Adolf Hitler had millions, but Jesus only had 12
letssaywedoanddont
Instead of my getting excited about having met someone new;
Yes,
I agree we should exchange contact information,
but instead of me calling you the next day,
like I would normally do,
and instead of my waiting for a return call that will never come,
If you're not sincere,
let’s both right now,
say we do (but don't),
so that
when we see each other in the future at a social setting,
it won’t be awkward-
you know,
with me wondering why you haven’t called me back,
and with you wondering how to respond.
Yes,
I agree we should exchange contact information,
but instead of me calling you the next day,
like I would normally do,
and instead of my waiting for a return call that will never come,
If you're not sincere,
let’s both right now,
say we do (but don't),
so that
when we see each other in the future at a social setting,
it won’t be awkward-
you know,
with me wondering why you haven’t called me back,
and with you wondering how to respond.
03 April 2018
16 March 2018
25 February 2018
21 February 2018
17 February 2018
14 February 2018
23 January 2018
19 January 2018
Today
Is a Dwele day. And Slum Village. And maybe Eric Benet.
I'm not in the mood for socializing.
It's supposed to rain heavily all day tomorrow; I'm going to lay in bed all day and watch Scandal, Ho To Get Away With Murder, whatever's good on Netflix, and I'll get up only to get something to eat and to use the bathroom. I'm not even going to bother to turn the volume up on my phone. It's impossible to miss calls that you don't get.
I'm feeling down. And it's not just because it's rainy season.
17 January 2018
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