SOULTIGHT

           this year so far has been a whirlwind of...opportunities, roadblocks, of friendships, of balance, and imbalance, of change, of new skills and assets, of obtained vision- and of vision lost. if it must be characterized by something than let it be by the momentum which carried it. nothing went "unmoved". and, as shocking as that is...and was, change is good. when we learn to face it, embrace it, and pursue it (in good qualities) we have overcome the fear of it.

            i have a lot of questions. i always have. i won’t stop asking them. that would be a dis-service, to my local influences but mostly to myself. accepting an answer i don't like is far easier than accepting silence. and accepting that you're destined to live a easy cornered life is far more complacant than eminent callings, but i seek to understand; i need to able to explain it if i am asked who, what, when, where, how, and why.

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            i want a party; a period at the end of a sentence; water after working out; a woman i love to whisper to me that she loves me and i am her man. at age 19 with raw skills and talents- i was ok with shooting myself in the foot, sitting down and saying "that was fun." yet a hunger growled...if i missed the mark by this much i'd miss the moon.

thus, with a BS in management and finance, twenty-plus years of employment in the banking and insurance industry and a resume that would cause most to question my sanity- i have admittedly accepted that perhaps, i will not emerge from this life at the oh so pearly gates clear of charge. instead, full of scars, a single man with a thick body, grey hair, and eyes that gleam & sparkle of abundant passion and hidden loves. i can accept that. i can accept and await the joy hidden in that path. God-willing, i have a long way to go. with lots to do. and i need more answers.
          --alexgeorge