Double Identity

“Sometimes it feels like shedding your skin while you’re still inside of it. Like you have not fully developed the new skin underneath the old one, and you have to live in an in-between state for a period of time. A mask that wants to come off, a face that is ready to show its true self, yet is still lingering within the now and then. But when though?” --Alexander Mc Queen

Some of my favorite things

• Black people graduating from high school and college.
• Black couples holding hands.
• Black men loving their women.
• Black fathers playing with their kids.
• An hourglass shape
• The sound of kids laughing
• A call in the middle of the night from her, telling me she's got a taste for one of my cakes
• Books of  poetry by June Jordan,Maya Angelou, Amiri Baraka, Haki Madhubuti, e.e. cummings
• The Bible
• My Motorola Xoom 4G lte tablet
• My Iphone
• Blue skies and the sun on my face
• Pics of me holding my nephew when he was first born
• A kiss on the back of my neck
• A fridge and kitchen cabinets stocked with food and ingredients for my cakes and other foods.
• Black fathers spending time with their sons ( I can't say that enough).
• Watching people enjoy what I've baked or cooked.
• Halle Berry's face
• Pics of me holding my son when he was first born
• When any black person from my job that I have never seen before, acknowledges me and nods hello
• Any music by Miles Davis, Prince, John Coltrane & Igor Stravinsky.
• A nice well-fitted Alexander McQueen suit, white shirt, matching ties, shoes and fedora.
• Summerfest
• The African American, Arab,  Persian an ethnic and Gospel festivals on the Summerfest grounds
• Classy women.

Prototype

I met a woman today

who spoke in terms

of dollar signs. Need-

less to say,

I left the scene

without letting her know

what I didn’t have

as visions of jaguars and alexander mcqueen couture 

danced above her head.

                 --alexgeorge

Random thoughts

30. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day.What a waste.

29. I totally take back all those times I didn’t want to nap when I was younger.

28. More often than not, when someone is telling me a story all I can think about is that I can’t wait for them to finish so that I can tell my own story that’s not only better, but also more directly involves me.

27. Im a proud, loyal Packer fan and a reluctant Viking fan (thanks alot, Brett Favre).

26. Is it really safe to fly with the flu and the swine flu going around, considering that the air on planes is recycled?

25. How many times is it appropriate to say “What?” before you just nod and smile because you still didn’t hear what they said?

24. Bad decisions make good stories

23. MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.

22. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

21. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you’re wrong.

20. I’m 47 now

19. Seems like I was just turning 40

18. My God-son asked me if Adam had a navel since he wasn’t born. I didn’t know how to answer him.

17. I have to shave daily now since my stubble is not black anymore, but grey.

16. I’m 47.

15. I watch too much tv.

14. I’m 47.

13. When will Oprah acknowledge my poetry manuscript I sent her years ago?

12. My Tivo, somehow, seems to know what I want to watch.

11. People in Oregon ask why I’m not wearing a jacket in 50 degree weather, and I just say three words:     “I’m from Wisconsin,” and people automatically understand.

10. I hate snow.

 9.  When I get married I want to wear an Alexander McQueen suit. Or shirt. Or fedora. Or shoes.

 8.  When will Oprah, Steven Spielberg, Quincy Jones, Lee Daniels, or Spike Lee take an interest in the short story manuscripts I’ve sent them?

 7.  I can’t afford the 2010 Jaguar XJ at the moment.

 6.  I need to be hypnotized to hate sweets so I can lose some weight.

 5.  When people say I look like I’m in my 30s are they just saying that to make me feel good?

 4.  I hope to be a homeowner within a year.

 3.  I'm glad I don't know where a Walmart is here; it's easier to avoid it that way.

 2. I totally take back all those times I didn’t want to nap when I was younger.

 1. I’m closer to 50 than I have ever been in my life, so far.