u've earned my affection

my affection

:

you

‘ve

earned it.

understanding;

knowing what you had to do

to prove that you were capable of loving me righteously

by not asking for it,

by not caring about

what I don’t have;

seeing past the rumours the misinterpretations misunderstandings

the lies

his lies her lies their lies

the lies of the world

lies that have been told so often that even I began to believe them

& feel them.

& act accordingly.

but you saw past them

not seeing what you want to see

you were suspecting,

determined.

somehow squeezing beauty out of

what I thought was ugly.

exposing what I didn’t know was inside me.

I have to admit to

ignoring you,

not feeling that I deserved your affection

initially.

but I learned to be obedient.

and who am I to be loved so righteously-

needing you the way Adam needed Eve

?

and who am I to be loved the way God meant for me to be loved

?

Only He knows.

(I’ll take

it)

--alex george